20/30.. You would think that at 20 days I would say something negative about this experience, but I have learned so much about my self during this time that it's just not possible. I've had so many health scares and problems that I had no confidence in anything not even my self. I could tell my self "I can do this, God is with me", everyday and most days would work but there were times that I just didn't allow my self to believe it.
I have struggled most of my life with weight issues which turned into an eating disorder. From eating enough, to not eating, eating with fear, to Living in FEAR. I have grown more in the past 20 days than in the past 35 years of my life. I see miracles everyday. I am a walking Miracle, but so are YOU! Yes you reading this You are a miracle, what you have been through, your experiences, have all made you the person you are. Just because those things make you who you are they DO NOT DEFINE who you are, or who you will be in the future.
I am not my mistakes, My sickness, My failures, or my successes.
I hear this every week, sometimes twice a day: "The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I've learned that if I want to see change in my life I had to change. I have been Transforming from the inside and out. I know my journey has just started. I can honestly tell you I am Excited about my future. Life has been so uncertain these past few years and for the first time I am not AFRAID.
Chewing has been on my mind, so Juiced flavored Ice cubes. Thank you God for giving the wisdom to make them.
Having a good day today, looking at recipes for Thanksgiving. I have two dinners to get ready for and so excited about both.
|nieces & nephew|
Last Thanksgiving was Amazing Mom got to join us. We were a Family for the first time in a long time. Dad was not physically there ( his ashes were lol) but boy I felt him there every second. I tried to be brave and tried to hide the fact that I was so ill. I was the huge elephant in the room (literally). Not this year. I have been praying on when to break the fast. and my answer came when a friend send me this picture today.
|Me @ spirit Fest 2012|
See me there? yes the Girl full of Life! Not just happy but see the JOY, That's what I want my Loved one to remember. Me Living life to the fullest. So the decision has been made to stop the 100% juice fast but not the Journey...... stay tuned for more adventures for this Dancing Green Frog!